I haven't blogged in what seems like forever and I feel awful. I didn't stop because I finished the bucket list or because I am so happy so happy with myself that I just stopped. Life just got in the way, plain and simple. During the past month or so, I have changed jobs and just tried to stay busy. The busier I am the less my mind wanders.
Occasionally though my mind did wonder. After you break up with someone it is only natural to reflect on what drew you to that person and what pushed you away. A lot of people don't sit and think what they want in a person, they are just happy to have anyone there. Sometimes I wish I could be that way but I am stubborn and I know what I want and I that is what I have to have.
So here is the start of list of wants:
I want someone who is educated. I used to think this meant someone who went to college. As I get older I realize there is so much learning out there that is not in a classroom. So as long as they are a life
long learning that would make me happy.
I want someone who gets along and loves his family. I regularly hang out with my cousin and my mom is like one of my best friends. DB rarely hung out with his family and it was so foreign to me. I want my partner's family to feel like my family. If he leaves the room I don't want it to feel awkward. I want the same warmth I get from my mother.
I want someone who enjoys the little things in life, like a Sunday drive or a walk in the woods. In the same token I want someone who can make any situation fun. If we are walking by a band playing grab my hand and dance along. I love someone who just takes life in and lives every moment. I want spontaneity and kept me on my toes. Who would randomly drive hours to go someone we saw on TV. Someone who plans surprises for me and I don't always have to think of what to do.
I think every few weeks I'll reflect on what I want in a partner.
Like I said before I feel like a lot of people don't want to be alone so they cling to anyone. Hell, I went through this a few months ago. You really need to reflect on what you want and need in a partner. So that years down the line when things are falling a part you are not looking at this person and thinking “Why did I pick you?”
A big part of knowing what you want is knowing who you are. Sometimes I feel like along the way I lost myself. The past few months this journey helped me realize who I am and who I want to be. I look forward to a new year or change and getting to know myself better.